If I were a guy, I’d get no play lol . Spending time with my friend this weekend made me realize just how things could have been .
Back in the summer I really wanted to get a job and get my own place, so we went job hunting & i got a call from a job and they wanted to hire me, but I couldn’t take it because of the babysitting . So they called her next & she could take the job .
So fast forward a few months later, I’m still in the same position & she’s out on her own with a roomate, a job, and money .
It’s a very shitty feeling just knowing where you could have been ..
I cannot wait to finally do my own thing . It’s frustrating because I don’t want to make anyone upset .
“What I am really saying is that you don’t need to do anything,
because if you see yourself in the correct way, you are all as much extraordinary phenomenon of nature as trees, clouds, the patterns in running water, the flickering of fire, the arrangement of the stars, and the form of a galaxy.
You are all just like that, and there is nothing wrong with you at all.”—Alan Watts (via human-voices)
” Women Skinned Colored as the Universe, You portray the stars, the light of the sun, and the beauty of night time. You can be bold, cold, but still pretty when your old. Maybe You’ve been Miss Landed all these years? But Let Me ask you, I can go miles into your Universe, but will I ever Get to…
“Took my heart away from money, I ain’t interested in fame and I pray that never change. Ambition is priceless, It’s something that’s in your veins and I put that on my name”—Wale (via samanthafitzgeraldmusicblog)
“Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand… Imagination embraces the entire world, and all there ever will be to know and understand.”—Albert Einstein (via loveyourchaos)
The older I get the more impatient I become towards other people and their nonsense. I don’t even wanna deal, the minute I sense drama, I’m out. I’m at this point in my life where everything is just funny. People are funny, situations are funny. Things just feel like a joke. I’d rather be laughing than fighting and arguing with people. Life is just comedy lately. Everything is ironic and my world is shrinking down so small. It’s like…unrealistic/shock/sarcastic laughter.
I’m trying so hard to enjoy myself , but it’s working against me it seems like .
My friend’s birthday is coming up & she’s planning on doing all this stuff which is understandable , but I feel like in order for me to be a good friend, I should participate in all the activities .
For one , I get $ 60 on Friday .
They want to go out on Wednesday .
She lives about a good hour away . I babysit & my sister could get home at any time . So that’s a no go for me .
So they want to go to the club on Friday , which is fine , but there’s still things that need to be figured out . If I have to drive down there, that’s gas . My bug might be small, but that’s a $50 full tank . What if I need a costume or an outfit ? Gotta get into the club , food , ect …
Idk .. I feel a little left out honestly . Finding everything out last minute , trying to break myself to participate …
It isn’t like I can fall back & chill with my boyfriend if I don’t go .
Boo … So alone !