When I cross your mind, what goes through your head? What do you miss most about me? About what we had. Do you miss my voice? The way I used to make you laugh? The way I hug you? Tease you? Please you? The way I say your name? The way I touch you? The way I feed you? The way I sing to you? The way we argue & the way we make-up? Hmm. Nah, actually fuck all that.. Do you even miss me at all?
when I get a new text message & it isn’t from you, I get disappointed.
when I wake up & see nothing new from you, it’s a bad start for my day.
when I go online & I see you talking to other people, I would get jealous.
when I send you a text or call you & you don’t reply or pick up, I get all sad.
when I try to see you & you can’t make time for me, I get mixed feelings.
You know what hurts about saying ”I miss you”? When you don’t even say it back & talk to me as if I never said it.
“Didn’t take it far, third base at most. Never sealed the deal, but always came close. I knew that if I hit it, I would have to stay committed. I was young, 21, man I just wasn’t with it. Knew what was comin and you can’t run from it. Ain’t no feelings that strong between man and a woman.”—Murs, First Love (via tellytothe)
“real hip hop is not dead. but music today is getting lame for us. they chasin’ fame rather than making a change for us. they stopped being artists. they stopped being honest. they want that club ish. ain’t no more dear mama’s.”— wale (via rellyyrellzz3)
Sometimes your over-curiosity about a person can protect you of heartbreak from a potential lover or disappointment in a “friend.” Because the more you discover about someone, the more chance there is for you to find out they’re not the person you first believed them to…
yet I don’t believe I have what it takes to continuously cultivate that love, throughout the entire experience. It’s like I’m always looking for something new, something better…so much that I can’t actually be content with what I have. Which is why most of the time, I don’t believe that I deserve love. Not yet, at least. That isn’t to say that I’m not worthy, because I’m perfectly capable… I guess I’m just not ready. Especially, if everything inside of me screams “There’s got to be something better, something more captivating.”
That’s gonna lead me to a lifetime of “so close to fulfillment, but there’s something better I know it, so I’m gonna keep going” type of love.
“I think that all the silence is worse than all violence
Fear is such a weak emotion, that’s why I despise it
We’re scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth
So scared of what you think of me, I’m scared of even telling you
Sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it to
I’m locked inside a cell in me, I know that there’s a jail in you
Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath inhale a few
My screams is finally gettin free, my thoughts is finally yellin through!”—Lupe Fiasco. (via herdreamsonline)
There’s such a beauty in being given the chance to get to know someone on a much higher level then what’s typically met. Being able to vibe physically and mentally surpasses just being able to coincide in just one aspect. Grazing the exterior is one thing, but to be able dig deeper into the person they really are and becoming familiar with their in’s & outs is such a exciting itinerary. Establishing a relationship with someone whether it be romantic or not brings such a thrill in my opinion.