“See all I wanna do is be relevant,
just tell me that I ever meant anything more,
that you could ever see me and you in another light,
but its like the dark women indoors in the darkest nights by the wrong man,
see all of them have made you incapable of a first impression,
what it do is I channel my aggression with no cable or antenna,
just intentions to impress you if capable,
hoping that the material possessions can materialize to a better you,
cars, nothing I drive can drive you out of this frame of mind,
for such an ugly picture and,
money, nothing I buy can buy more time for your ears to tell your heart to listen to it,
diamonds, a girl’s best friend is what they say but believe me with the right allegiance shorty you gonna shine anyways,
and everyday that goes by is a couple more lines in her diary,
the day before is better than the present,
so anyone presented in her presence endures these life sentences,
there’s no key for release,
no reason to be around,
her minds in the clouds,
she writes it all down,
in her diary.”—Wale (via igotyoustuck)
“Don’t expect someone to read your mind, and don’t play games with heads or hearts. Don’t tell half truths and expect trust when the full truth comes out. Half truths are no better then lies. Don’t be cold to someone you care about, indifference hurts more then angry words.”—(via iwasborntired)
“Doin more than I’ve ever done for anyone’s attention. Take notice of what’s in front of you cause did I mention you’re ‘bout to miss a good thing. And you’ll never know how good it feels to have all of my affection and you’ll never get a chance to experience my lovin’, cause my lovin’ feels like ooooooo.”—Alicia Keys, You Don’t Know My Name (via tellytothe)
Girl...i love your post focus! it took the words right out of my mouth cause thats exactly how i feel! your amaze and as long as u kno who u are and u know what makes u happy thats all that matters eff everyone else!
Thank you ! You`re right, after awhile you have to do things for yourself . You can`t depend on others to make you happy `cause you`ll be wasting your time . And heck yeah, eff everyone who doesn`t like it lol .
I`ve spent too much time focusing on making other people happy and trying to please the fuck out of them, I`ve completely forgotten about my own happiness .
I was basing my feelings on how I made others feel when even then, I still wasn`t happy . I think it`s perfectly fine to be somewhat selfish with my happiness, no one is going out of their way to make me happy, so why should I do that for them ?
It`s not fair and it`s an emotional drain . That is my mindset now, if you`re not making me happy . . I`m not really worried about you, nor am I fucking with you .
I went out clubbing on Staurday and I had an amazing time ! I love to dance, grind, twerk, whatever and add some cute guys … I was the happiest camper in that room probably lol .
But after the club my friends and I went to Denny`s to eat . It was PACKED ! When we were pulling in, I was like DAMN ! But when we actually got in there . . not so much lol . This is going to sound terrible, but idgaf . It was packed full of loud ass black people who were “ratchet” according to one of my friends . The poor waitresses, they looked so uncomfortable lol .
But it was then where I learned that old black men love me lol . Some of these guys were old enough to be my father, and they were trying to see “what`s up” . I think some people need to find lovers their own age honestly lol . And I also learned that some guys will curse you out if you don`t entertain their advances, especially when they`re drunk . For me, if you would just come up to me in a respectful way, i would gladly converse with you . However, when you`re grabbing my arm, undressing me with your eyes, staring at my chest and trying to hug my ass, I`m not going to want to talk to you point blank .
I mean when I walk by and you jiggle my butt, I`m not going to have much else to say to you after I curse you out and that`s just what it is .
Don’t let your heart overpower your mind. Although it is easier said then done, it will save you from pain and confusion. Know that there is a difference between what you want and what is right for you.
I feel like all these relationship posts are my way of saying something about my life . I feel like these posts are basically showing how unhappy I am with my life and how I want to have someone because I feel like I have no one .
I`m that type of person where I neeeeed people . I hate being alone, I loathe it to the highest degree .
It`s like that saying where you feel alone even though you`re surrounded by a bunch of people … I think that`s me right now . I feel alone and I want to feel important to someone .
I feel like I`m an option, never a priority . .
I feel that way with family, friends, pretty much everything .
I want to be a priority , I want to feel important to someone … anyone .
On our way home after a night of clubbing and partying, my friend and I were talking about what we wanted after we met a nice ammount of guys .
She`s okay with having a cuddle buddy, or just a close friend for the time being and that`s cool . For me, I need more than that . I mean, I`m perfectly fine with having a no strings attached cuddle buddy, but i want that emotinal stimulation . I long for that emotional connection, something deeper and stronger, but more than friends or a “cuddle buddy” .
I want to depend on someone, without depending on someone . It`s hard to explain or understand, but it makes sense in my mind . . just know that much .
“Well she knows I got the remody, the real thing, not only physically
I need a lifetime lover, not a nighttime lover
Now it’s getting kinda serious, don’t be scared don’t be delirious
I need a lifetime lover, not a nighttime lover”—J Boog (via 4theboyz)
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Thank you ! It`s because I like to talk and I like to talk a lot lol . I`m glad you like it =D
I look at my phone every so often and nothing . No so much as a vibrate or anything . Out the corner of my eye I see the screen illuminate so I quickly grab it, only to see that it was nothing at all .
It`s funny . I feel like this person won`t meet me halfway and that they`re extremely confusing . I see them as someone who as of right now, isn`t worth my time nor do they deserve my attention .
But I still want his . Ugh .
I told myself I would back off and “teach” him a lesson about what he could be missing out on, but I think I ended up hurting myself with the truth . I wasn`t worth his time … At least now I know where I stand . funny how history repeats itself for me .
Another relationship failed at the talking stage . . This is annoying .
“The most important things are the hardest things to say. They are the things you get ashamed of, because words diminish them - words shrink things that seemed limitless when they were in your head to no more than living size when they’re brought out. But it’s more than that, isn’t it? The most important things lie too close to wherever your secret heart is buried, like landmarks to a treasure your enemies would love to steal away. And you may make revelations that cost you dearly only to have people look at you in a funny way, not understanding what you’ve said at all, or why you thought it was so important that you almost cried while you were saying it. That’s the worst, I think. When the secret stays locked within not for want of a teller, but for want of an understanding ear.”—Stephen King (via subtlelights)
I use it as a way to cope, or regain my happiness because I like new things .
Right now … I`m about to change my hair again, but drastic this time . I`m using the scissors ! I feel like if I cut my hair, it`ll just remove all of the negative feelings I`m holding on to because I`m having a change of heart .
I`ll elaborate more on this later because I REALLY want to go do my hair now . =)
“I shot for the stars, because I’m aiming for your heart. And if the clouds get in my way, I’m tearing’em apart. Because girl your my angel, And I’m cupids dart. I’ll travel to any place - Final destination is your heart.”—JL (via thejahlilconspiracy)