I feel like people LOVE to mind fuck me . I think it makes them feel good inside knowing that they`re trying to get a reaction out of me .
These past few days I`ve started speaking to the guy, we`ll call him M, that pretty much said he hated me and a bunch of other disrespectful things . He sent me a text and I was beyond shocked since he told me to never talk to him again . Stupid me decided to just talk to him, for what reason ? Idk . There`s really nothing for me to gain from speaking to him .
He apologized for what he said and basically said he wants me in his life again . . But he has a girl, BUT he fucks with other girls because his main girl doesn`t care . He described it as “Semi - Single" . I think they`re both dumb as fuck to be quite honest . And then he goes on to say that he misses me, not in the sexual way, but in the emotional way -______________- I can`t miss someone like him , I was honest with him on that part . He kept trying to get me to come “chill”, I turned him down .
He says that we should chill because he misses that and I should dump the guy I`m talking to now because I`m all his , why would I make myself the side piece ? I care about myself too much to do that . I tell him, “I wouldn`t do that to myself because you damn sure wouldn`t drop your new girl for me . You made it very CLEAR that your new girl is way better than me . Remember how you didn`t need dumb lying hoes like me in your life now that you have her ? Why would you leave her for someone like me ? She`s great and I`m not . That`s what you said . That`s how you felt .”
He switches it up saying that he would leave her for me, but I don`t want to be with him so there`d be no reason to . He then says we should do some sexual type stuff, because me and the guy I`m talking to have nothing to do with me and him and vice versa . That`s just asking for trouble, I told him since he`s messing with a lot of girls and he doesn`t like to use condoms that`s not a good idea, so no .
His entire reasoning behind this was that he changed his mind and he`s telling me how he feels now . He cared about me a lot more than he thought and he was mistreating me for no reason . . I would look dumb as fuck if I went back to that . He really did hurt me and Idk if I`ll be able to get over it anytime soon . I feel like he broke me down, ALL the way down, and I need space to build myself back up . I can`t , I just can`t …
Most would say “everyone deserves a second chance”. But honestly it depends on what they’ve done to even need that second chance in the first place. What makes this time so much different? How do I know you won’t cause me the same pain as you did the first time? I think sometimes it’s good to say no to second chances because it actually gives the person time to sit there and think if their actions were really worth it in the first place.
All you want to do is talk to them, and only them. You block out everything else, and just focus on that one person. They’re on your mind 24/7, literally. And whenever they’re mentioned, whenever you see them, your tummy explodes with butterflies.
I just find it really attractive when a guy can act mature/proper. I’m tired of perverted losers that don’t know how to treat or talk to a girl correctly; calling them hot or sexy and using inappropriate language towards them. I’m mostly searching for a gentleman that actually puts meaning into his sweet talk, making it more believable than it already may be. You know, just a guy who looks beyond a girl’s appearance, and more into her heart. That’s just me though.
“I don’t never be trippin’ off of what ain’t mine. I be hearing the shit you say through the grape vine, but jealousy is just love and hate at the same time! Yeah, it’s been that way from the beginning. I just been playing I ain’t even notice I was winning.”—Drake (via vbella)
I always tend to over look the small things an focus on the big things when in reality the small things matter the most. Each time I get mad at the big things an I think about the reason why it happened is because its like a domino affect an one small things leads to another an another until it gets too big to the point it pisses me off. In reality I was the reason why all of it happened just ‘cause I simply over looked something that it seemed like it didn’t matter.
You know that one person who always has to over-do it ?
That person who always talkes about them being ”grown” and they like to club and party and wear the club attire . .
BUT they always go overboard with it ? You know that one outfit at the mall that`s made out of a piece of string and 2 band-aids and you look at it like o_0 That person would be the one to buy it because it would be doing overly too much .
I saw that person tonight . At the gas station, this girl comes in and the way she was kind of tip - toeing to the bathroom was a little … dramatic in a sense . I noticed she had on a black dress with a red bra, red shoes, and red/ black hair to match . Weeeeeell then . . But when she turned the corner, all you saw was ASS CHEEKS . Her dress had a slit in it on the ass part …
Who does that and thinks it cute ? Well- obviously her , but geez . I know you want attention, but . . there are certain ways to get it . She might be a sweet person , but from her attire… yup . . I judged her . Hoodrat . .
Oh well . The things I see at the Shell station . And it wasn`t even super late ! It was around 11`ish, aren`t the clubs still going at that time ? Maaaaan , I don`t even know lol .
“But who can say what’s best? That’s why you need to grab whatever chance you have of happiness where you find it, and not worry about other people too much. My experience tells me that we get no more than two or three such chances in a life time, and if we let them go, we regret it for the rest of our lives.”— Haruki Murakam (via mariannmaeee)
My friends always say how they hate the clingy guys . You know the type that ask where they`re going and who they`re gonna be with , ect . . things of that nature .
But we differ completely . I would love a clingy guy . I mean, sure it`ll get annoying at times but I feel that`s a part that I`ll just have to put up or shut up pretty much .
I want a guy that`ll be concerned or curious about where I`m going or who I`ll be with . Don`t twist it and make it seem like I`m saying I`m okay with him controlling me, Not at all because he`s not . I don`t see an issue with telling my dude where I`m going , why would there be ? If I think he`s the type that`ll show up and ruin my good time, I wouldn`t put up with that and I`d let him know for sure . But it`s like . . oh idk , it`s hard to explain lol .
The reason why I say this is because I HATE the type of guy that`s just like , IDGAF . Don`t care where you go, who you chill with . . You know, just feeling like they have no concern about me pretty much . I hate that, I love the ones who care . It may be annoying as hell to some, but to me … it`s comforting .