People grow tired of putting in effort only to get rejected. So dont get all depressed and start asking questions because you know damn well you did everything you could ever do to make sure that, that one person would walk out of your life. So if you want someone to be there show them you want them in your life. People arent mind readers they will only do so much until they finally walk out and leave you for good.
Baked chicken and mac n cheese and some vegetable is what I planned to cook . Because that`s all we seem to have . i`m surprised I found chicken to be honest .
Hopefully this turns out right because I`m working with limited ingredients . VERY limited ingredients . We had 3 eggs left and I was going to use one or two to dredge the chicken and I was going to use the rest of the cheese for the mac n cheese . . but of course that wouldn`t work because now a family member is enjoying a very cheesy omelet -________________-
This may seem like something little, but it just adds to my feelings of blah-ness that I`ve been feeling for pretty much this entire week .
Sometimes I wonder if I’m wasting my life ..
Like, there’s so much I could be doing but , I’m always stuck . First I was stuck with my mom and couldn’t grow . And now I’m stuck with my sister , I get to do shit like party and stay out, I’m stuck inside babysitting … Which is the last thing I want to do .
I wish there was a way that I could … Idk, do my own thing ? I have all these plans for myself, but I can’t really put them into action because I’m STUCK . It’s definitely frustrating .. Ugh .
Look here.. Baby, I want you more than anything believe this shit or not. I’m your rock, I’m your black knight, baby i’m ya Pac. I’m ya Clyde, you my Bonnie. Murder Mami from the spot. We gon make it through the rough patch and make it to the top. Baby, see you my real, future mother of my kids. I know you gon forgive me for the dumb sh**t i did. You know I’m gon forgive you for the dumb s**t YOU did. One love. One heart. But you need new friends. Take that witcha.
“I used to do it for the love a long time ago and all I ever wanted was love. I used to love without fear a long time ago and all I ever wanted was love. Then somebody came around and tried to hurt me, tried to make me feel like I was unworthy. Took a pure love and tried to make it dirty, truth was they never did deserve me.”—Lauryn Hill (via stellablu)
It’s crazy how much you think about one person. Like there’s so many things to wonder about them. Are they thinking about me? How often do they check my Tumblr/FB? Do they wanna text me but just waiting for me to text em first? Have I crossed their mind today? Etc. etc. The list is fucking endless when wondering about someone you constantly think about.
Sometimes I hate texting people first cause I swear, I always feel like I’m bothering them.
she loves you, so don’t take her for granted cause nothing lasts forever and she could disappear like magic but for now she has love you can’t measure if you left she’d cry ‘til her voice went hoarse heartbreak is a storm the soul just can’t weather so when things really got worse ya’ soul showed you were only there for the better
I , for one , strongly dislike when people play with my emotions . Why can`t you just be upfront with it ? I don`t understand . What is so hard about telling it straight how it is, but yet you claim to be the realest out there ?
People never cease to amaze me , I swear . I can`t even bring the words to express how … blah this makes me feel . It puts me in an awkward position because now it`s up to me to choose how to deal with you when I shouldn`t have even had to do that in the first place, if they would have just been straight up .
I don`t get it . What is there to gain from basically . . playing me like a fool ? At the end of the day, you lose it all in a sense . But ANYWHO, ( it`s late, I can`t collect my thoughts ) I just had to get that out . It`s a waste to me .
What is there to gain from turning my world that you heavily resided in, all the way upside down because you`re too immature to say what it is ? I hate that excuse , ” I didn`t want to hurt you with how I really felt ” So you`d rather hurt me more with a lie ? Leading me on ?
That makes it so much more better . You`re a great person for doing me that solid . Be real . I`d much rather have someone tell me that they don`t feel the same way for me , than letting me believe they do and later on finding out they don`t when my feelings may have gotten a lot stronger .
I question the existance of the people who do that .
“You wanna grab me when you see me leaving. Won’t take you back and I’ll give you the reasons. I told you I’d leave, knowing I wanted to stay. You didn’t try, you let me walk away. Starting to think all niggas are the same. The look on your face tells me that you’re ashamed. Wanted to love you but now I’m afraid. You say you need me and how much you’ve changed. I don’t believe you, it could be just game. Trust isn’t something you give out, it’s gained.”—Teyana Taylor - Her Room (Marvin’s Room remix)
as easily as others . Idk why it`s so hard for me . I mean, I know how I feel and I know what I want to say, but I don`t know exactly how I want to say it ?
And even then, sometimes I don`t know how I feel . It`s all so confusing and it frustrates me because I can`t take my mind off of the thoughts that are constantly going through my head for the simple fact that I can`t find the right way to express them .
“ I’ve been waiting for so long to get you all alone. Now, I finally got you right here. So, baby I’ma lock my door & disconnect my phone. ‘Cause I wanna make one thing clear: I want you on top. So, let your hair down. I took the night off for you. Girl, I’m gonna turn the lights off, but keep your heels on - they’re fitting for what I’m about to do. “